Faiz. 22. Used to be an introvert, but now slowly becoming ambivert.

Charlie?

So, i watched The Perks of Being a Wallflower just now. It's really a heart touching movie. And dia cerita pasal Charlie, a shy guy, yang selalu hide himself, tak bertegur dengan orang sangat, but dia actually ada simpan banyak masalah since dia kecil and dia tak cerita kat siapa siapa. Dia lonely, dia desperate for a new friend. Bila tengok apa jadi kat dia, aku rasa macam tergamam kejap. Omg, that's going to happen to me if aku tak luahkan masalah aku? Aku somehow boleh rasa and faham apa Charlie rasa. Plus, i almost cried kot tengok Charlie. Dia jadi mental... And i'm afraid if i'll be like him. I don't know, aku pun ada masalah, tapi aku choose not to tell/share with the others 'cause it's too... ahh nevermind...
Aku pening lah, i just need a counselor that i can share my probs with. I am so desperate to solve my probs. Entah lah, how am i gonna solve it? I can't run from this, i have to solve it. Hmmm, pening... I just don't wanna end up like Charlie where he choose to commit suicide as an option to solve his problems... Tapi luckily dia diselamatkan by doctor apa entah, macam psychiatrist camtu lah... Hmmm what if this happens to me, but without the doctor? Haihhh no one's gonna understand me... *sigh*

Stop crying... Stop crying...

What am i doing now?

Assalamualaikum, well hello? Check out your calendar peeps, it's 21.12.2012. End of the world? Nahhhh, what an epic fail dear Mayans. Okay, latest news about me? SPM is over, i am no longer a high chool-er, and i'll be 18 next year. Finally, an ultimate freedom. I can watch any movies that i like. So i just wanna tell you guys, errr i mean to those who can read this post lah... errr takde siapa pun tahu blog aku soooo takpe cakap je lah sorang sorang. Okay, it's 3am and aku tetiba bosan... and 'lil bit emo actually, so idea nak post a new post tu banyak. So i just wanna tell you guys apa yang aku buat setakat ni. Maklum lah, dah graduate, dah free dari sekolah kan. Okay, aku tak buat apa pun cuti, it's really a boring holiday for me. Bangun tidur, makan, online, tengok tv, tidur something like that lah. PLKN? I haven't receive any news or letters from them... yet! Dah check kat website, takde pape pun. I'm just hoping that they will put me in Group 1 lah. Cuti ni tak kerja, duduk rumah je lah. Keluar rumah pun jarang. Kerja nanti bulan 1 lah kot, next year. Dengan kawan kawan pulak dah macam renggang sikit sebab dah jarang jumpa kan. So yeah, that's all i can tell for now. Bye.